For the first time I "planted the image on the canvas" after the Initiation - "Entry into the gates of tantra" - from a modern teacher of Tibetan Buddhism Chokyi Nyima Rinpoche.
And it seems to me that a certain trace of that Initiation can be traced in my paintings.
I think they convey a state of awareness.
And recently I met a confirmation of my feelings from another Tibetan lama of today:
THE MIND EXPRESSING ITSELF FREELY
- WITHOUT FEAR OR JUDGEMENT
The essential practice of meditation is to allow the mind to express itself freely without fear or judgment.
In each moment of awareness we encounter impressions of the outer world through our sense perception as well as our inner world of thoughts, feelings and emotions. When, through the process of meditation, we are able to let this incredible array of experience be, without trying to reject what we fear or pull in what we feel attracted to - when we relax into experience without trying to manipulate it in any way - we have a complete experience of mind, naked and unaltered.
Art, when it is free of such notions of beauty and ugliness, ‘shoulds’ and ‘shouldn’ts’ can be used to express this complete experience of mind. When art evolves from this understanding it provides the possibility for those who see it to also experience the natural and unfabricated nature of their own awareness.
~ Dzigar Kongtrul Rinpoche
I believe that the paintings below give the audience such an opportunity.
I will only add that this unimaginative nature of self-awareness is totaly joy and freedom.
It seems to me even more - that the painting of awareness opens a fundamentally new page in the history of painting. The past dissolved in the void of Malevich's Black Square, the light-bearing potentiality of the void manifested itself in the Fabric of the World. Which conveys the idea of the interconnection of everything with everything.
"Fabric of the World", oil on canvas 40x80. Inspiration from Borges' short story "The Letters of God".
An Indian priest, tormented by hatred for the conquistador who destroyed his country, and by a desire to take revenge on him, deciphers the writings of God on the skin of a jaguar.
And at the same moment he understands that the whole world is a fabric in which he is one thread, the jaguar is another, and the conquistador is the third...
And the feeling of hatred leaves him.
"Autumn Pond", oil on canvas 35x50.
Inspiration from the pond, which was located where the Initiation took place.
"Lucky streak", c, acrylic, 40x60.
Inspiration from the sun that hit the window early in the morning.
"Sunflower", oil on canvas 18x24.
"Wealth and Poverty", oil on canvas 40x40.
Unity of opposites.
Addiction, oil, canvas, 50x50
Pair, canvas, akrylic, 70x70
Cordoni, oil, canvas, 40x80
Transcendence, canvas, oil, 50x50
Sand and sea. Oil, canvas, 20x20